more rant

i dont really like my narrative design lect. hes fine enough i guess, but i just feel like he was a bit condescending towards me in class. idk if this is just a hormones thing or what but man i felt on edge the whole day since that class

having a minor meltdown at lala lol

i feel it is a little funny for a games design student to not have played much games before but. yanno maybe i just like the games i do play? theres nothing wrong with that. we never had a console at home, at most i would play pokemon on an emulator cuz thats what my brothers played. most of my childhood i spent reading novels and fanfics, not playing games. in fact my fanfic reading was so intense that i would miss school days. the other games i eould play were flash games on y8 or facebook but those dont exist anymore.

the way he said like just because he didnt have a console at home he went to cyber cafes and borrowed relatives' consoles felt condescending to me. like bro what u want me to do? my kid self wasnt really interested in games and the people around me didnt engage in it much either. it doesnt help that cyber cafes tend to have a negative connotation and i was raised to be quite a goody two shoes even if i didnt go to school sometimes. like sorry my past self was more of a reader than a gamer bruh. 

i like games. i think theyre interesting, and i would love to play more if any of them interested me. the current games i play are interesting to me so i play them. am i at fault for not liking shooters or hack n slashes? "play every game even those out of ur comfort zone" ok then. but that will take a while. 

even movies, i dont really watch anything current. i usually watch youtube content, like true crime and commentary. its hard for me to get into a series by myself, much easier if i had someone to watch with me. 

plus so many games are paid. im not so rich to be able to access all of them, bruh... guess ill go crack them

entahlah. i dun blame him, he prolly thought it was just a neutral comment and im making it deeper than it has to be but i just feel like hes looking down on me. takpelah ill just do the assignments and keep my interaction with him to a minimum.

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