Just Me, Myself and I

 

 i hate cursed audio in google meet TT it's so horrible currently having introductions in class but i can barely makeout the words

  i feel like im wasting time lol i know that im still young and i can change courses once im done but idk, i just feel so out of depth ;-;

 yooo these new adobe apps are really cool :D it makes me want to learn lots of stuff! like coding websites, editing videos, animation... there's so much i want to learn and try out. maybe i should look up courses on them sometime, they're really interesting! also i should probably get back to that sketchup class thingy... i've left it on hold for quite a while.

 you're alone and cold in your bedroom, the fan whirring as fast as it could go as it usually did. there's three tabs open in your laptop, one playing music that you've never heard before in a language you don't understand, but the melody is quite nice so you don't bother changing it. in the kitchen, someone tinkers with glassware and fills a cup with water. your eyes flutter, torn between staying awake and succumbing to sleep. the song changes to another song, the artist's voice raw and emotional as they pour their all into their art. you listen mindlessly, and before you know there's darkness. the dinner table is empty. your family is asleep, retired to their respective rooms with the late hour, but you're restless and anxious for something to happen. your reflection is dull and unclear in the scratched marble of the table, and your hands draw meaningless symbols as you lose yourself in your thoughts. when you lock eyes with a girl across the street, w

so, i am a master of inconsistency, but i will do my best to do this challenge until the bitter end TvT  day 1: describe your personality. i think my defining trait is being carefree. i usually do things without a plan in mind and follow impulse more than anything. for me, plans are restrictive and burdensome. i find it more comfortable to go with the flow and make do with what i have.  i would say i am reserved but also enthusiastic? i keep to myself but i have a certain passion when i do things, i think. like when i draw, people would just see me doodling mindlessly with earphones on and my mind far away, but im actually losing myself in the process and letting the enjoyment of drawing sink into me. i dont really know how to say it. im introverted too, but occasionally the chatty extrovert in me makes an appearance. it's very random and unreliable, but extrovert-me is super talkative, friendly and easy to get along with. usually, im quiet and keep to myself unless im with someone

okay i don't know when or why or how but i absolutely looooooove founders x sakura. don't ask. but sadly, there aren't many good ones out there for me to enjoy, or the ones that are good are still in progress so im impatiently waiting for the story's completion. instead, im just going to write whatever prompts come to mind. keep in mind im a heavy multisaku shipper so yeaaa expect the unexpected when it comes to pairings ;) founders x saku civilian sakura who has memories of her past self that randomly occurs in flashbacks. she's also the daughter of a baker. madasaku, tobisaku, hashisaku, izusaku and mitosaku~ mito and hashi are engaged but they're not really in love with each other. in fact, they're both fighting for sakura's affections, in the most passive-aggressive way possible. sakura doesn't know the mess she's getting into. mada and izu like to gang up on her and corner her before stealing her away for the whole day. they're super pos

In light of the recent movement which is 'Black Lives Matter' I have decided to look into the racism occurring in Malaysia. As a Malay myself, I have lived in ignorance due to my privilege and foolishly thought racism was no longer a prevalent matter here. Now that I've read a few articles, and heard some rather distasteful words from my parents, I now realize that is not the case. Racism is very much evident in daily life. I am a young girl, my views will not change the world as it is. This is simply how I think. I think all Malaysians should get equal rights for housing, job opportunities, education and such. However, since Malays were the original residents of this land, I suppose a few advantages such as MARA would be good, but not to the point of limiting the opportunities of the other races. All Malaysians should respect each other, no matter what race or religion or even political view. We should be united against racism, not fanning the flames and living in hate. Wh